Time felt so slow yet so quick since the COVID-19 outbreak, the best part of MCO(then CMCO, now RMCO) was having Joe to work from home during my second and third trimester where things can really go out of control with only me and Alyssa at home. At least that's what I thought and I can't imagine! He then became jobless(definitely not something we should feel totally happy about) prior to my EDD so he's at home most of the time. He has helped me so much from keeping Alyssa busy, brought her out for some activities so I can get more rest, bought us meals by going in and out several times a day & made sure he showers once he's home... And when we sense that labour is happening, he helped to ease my pain by offering back massage while I'm trying to labour at home for longer period of time, to remain calm and drop Alyssa off to our in-laws.. & of course, he was right there with me throughout my labour. In fact, I was very mad at him earlier on the same day, I also threw tantrums at him the night before. Gosh... I felt so bad after seeing how helpful and supportive he was during labour.
Before we had kids we lived life as adventurous as possible–we had dates and travel plans, explore new cafes or restaurants, spent weekends going to movies or road trips, just the two of us. Ever since Alyssa came into our lives, we quickly switched from "husband and wife" to "mum and dad". It felt as though we never had the chance to enjoy the honeymoon period after being married. But everything was all well planned and we were really lucky!
Being a parent is a huge transition for us. We somehow learned to divide and conquer to make sure everything gets done and to give each other a break. It often feels like we get less fun time together or even just a sit-together period. With Brandon came along this time, I'm sure things will go more differently(I was never good at multitasking but we have a newborn and a talkative toddler now.)
But I know every little bit of it is gonna be worth it, this was the reason I decided to have more than just 1 child from the beginning. For every moment I'm struggling to connect with Joe or have a romantic moment, there's a time we give each other a look of pride and joy about the connections we see between our kids and ourselves.
We love our kids nevertheless, and the joy they bring to our lives outweighs all the changes in our marriage. We're trying to embrace everything that comes our way in this particular phase. I really look forward to days we can be spontaneous again, who knows, maybe in like 10 or 20 years?
Prior to new year I have...
• burned at least 3 trays of cookies.
• accidentally spent for the double item (twice) because I didn't check quantity before payment.
• failed 3 chiffon cakes in a week which later we discovered it's the oven problem (the perseverance to fail 3 times in 5 days deserves some claps lah)
• failed some of mum's recipe even I followed precisely.
• broke a coffee dripper when I was happily going to brew myself a nice cuppa.
• broke a wine glass when I'm in the mood for a drink.
• cut my right index finger with a serrated knife.
• massive mum-guilt for not spending time with my girl.
Despite all these, I'm beyond grateful because I think I've grown better in the past year. I'm so happy to reconnect with some of my long lost friends and made new(old) friends, I'm also less depressed and more open-minded now. Oh well... and first CNY away from home filled with mostly home-baked goods and my favourite foods, I guess it's not so bad afterall.
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