Changing time!

Raising kid indicates new challenges everyday, there's always something new and different. But what a privilege it is to watch your own child grow each day. There are days I feel extremely terrible when baby is being extra cranky but deep down inside, I'm enjoying every single moment. Truth be told, in the near future I probably won't remember the bad days or how the day felt so long when Joe is taking forever to come home from work. I also won't remember how many inches she grow or how much weight she gained each day.. I will only remember how she responded with a big smile the each time I make funny faces and how she melts me in every little thing she does whilst amazed by my ability to make such cute baby, I'm sure it crossed every mother's mind right?

Close Up
Close Up
Look at her! She's definitely growing up to be a daddy's girl.

Alyssa is 3 months old as of today, it also marks the 3rd month of me being a SAHM! It all seems to have happened so quickly and I still can't get used to having someone to call "my daughter". I can't wait for her to grow up and have more interactions with us; at the same time I wish the time could stop so she will always stay little in my arms.
It's been 2 weeks since the birth of Alyssa. I could still remember the earthy scent of her when she first handed to me fresh from vagina. Still find it hard to believe I actually did it. I can't say I have finally overcome the fear of labour, but thank god this whole new level of pain tolerance and childbirth experience is finally over!

Crying Out Loud

Initially I wanted to have all natural childbirth(it makes complete sense why I signed up for hypnobirthing class), we decided to get induction due to low amniotic fluid on 39W1D. From anxiety to fear, then I was completely traumatised. The pain came too quickly I wasn't able to breathe through it. Getting any form of pain relief was never part of my plan because I'm really afraid of needles and the side effects. I almost do though, the pain was so intense I nearly ask to be killed. I found myself persistently inhale on laughing gas. At about 6PM, labour was progressing real slow so they decided to put me on Pitocin to speed things up. Fast forward to 8:30PM I was told to get ready to push. Active labour lasts for about 3 hours, so I was considered very, very lucky as a first-time mum!

Bath Time!

Unfortunately I didn't manage to practise hypnobirthing skills I learned from class, but the rainbow relaxation music is extremely helpful to put me to sleep through my pregnancy. I also did the perineum massage and kegel exercises very regularly—it is said to reduce chance of tearing and episiotomy. So there's no tear & stitches for me I can still walk like a champ after delivery!

I made a public confession to thank Joe for being such a wonderful husband on FB the other day & I didn't mention about the hospital staffs. I wouldn't have done it without them too. I was really lucky to have a bunch of helpful, compassionate, supportive and patient midwives and nurses. I felt like I owed it so much to them especially when I was so vulnerable in the labour room. I didn't know the voice of nurses can be so comforting in the midst of chaos. It's amazing to see how they can handle the worst side of me when we're complete strangers. And my gynae Dr Nic, of course! I love him! My very crucial 3 days after delivery is very smooth sailing. My postpartum recovery is going well, so is my breastfeeding journey.

Breastfeeding is really not easy. Breast engorgement and cracked nipples are yet another whole new experience of pain. I was suffering in pain in my first week I felt so resisted to have baby latch on me. I was also stressed not having enough of milk supply. I didn't want to give up even Joe told me to, as I know breast milk is the best food I can give to my baby.

Save me, mummy!

Childbirth is indeed a very rewarding experience. It's probably strange to have this come out from my mouth but yeah, I'm already looking forward to have another child but when the day comes, I look forward to handle labour with a peace of mind.
Happy Birthday Baby Tofu!

I'm so happy we managed to throw Tofu a mini birthday celebration at home last weekend before we send her off to nanny(haha) in preparation of the day and my admission to confinement centre for a month. I have been telling baby to stay good and well so that I can celebrate with Tofu JJ before her arrival, not really a believer in belly talk but guess she heard me!

Loves of my life!

This year had been all about anxieties—pre-wedding depression, pregnancy anxiety, house hunting/moving pressure... Arghhh how can all the life's big events are happening in a year? We have been counting down since last Q4, seriously. Before one get checked off the list there's always something new coming up next. I'm glad everything is coming to an end before next Q3(?), I hope! I'm type A person, I get panic attack and stressed easily. For that, I'm truly & deeply blessed to have such a patient husband like Joe by my side.

Since I quitted my job before the wedding(hence I'm very poor) and was really bothered with pregnancy sickness for the first 5 months, it was really the most horrible experience in my life. Which is why I owed it so much to Tofu and I'm also thankful for her. With a new family member on her way and soon planning to move into a new house, any financial situation must be taken into account for every decisions we make. And since I'm no longer making decisions on my own, there's always something we/I need to sacrifice for one another—here comes challenging part of marriage, I'm so used to be independent and it has always been about me and myself.

How time flies, I'm in the last weeks of my pregnancy already. Lil cupcake is still actively punching and kicking to the extend I sometimes feel like puking. I'm still scared and worried, at the same time I'm getting very impatient already. Everyone is showing so much love to her before she's even born, I can't imagine how well pampered she's going to be.
Invading Gyeongbokgung Palace

這一天算是我自己蠻期待的一天~ 雖然不是第一次穿上韓服,可是穿韓服進古宮還是人生第一次體驗!早上吃了個早餐我們就走向大街邊尋找出租韓服的店面。試了一段時間,好不容易配到一套讓自己覺得舒服的顏色;也感恩JOE在沒有很願意的情況下,最後還是放開心胸陪我們一起玩~
Bukchon Hanok Village
我們的村屋Bukchonmaru大門。

Bukchon Hanok Village

在弘大區呆了大概三晚就離開了。難得來到了韓國,當然少不了嘗試體驗韓式村屋。所以我們一人拖著兩個笨重的大行李走向又彎又斜的小山路直到我們租的村屋去(其實是走錯方向FML)。這一次吸取的教訓是,如果你真的打算在LOTTE MART狂掃零食和泡菜,請務必把LOTTE MART行程安排到最後一個晚上。-_-

一路走向村屋的街道上看到不一樣的建築風格,雖然大街只在轉彎的路口,可是有點讓人覺得自己來到另一個世界。屋子的外觀都保留得很好,都是有住戶的。雖然山路很小很擠,如果太累不願意走路的話,還是可以搭路邊小巴上去,體驗當地公共交通之餘也可以一睹不一樣的街景。
Hongdae
Hongdae
April 2017 (taken by Olympus Pen-F w/ 17mm f1.8)

Hongik E3
Out of Focus
September 2017 (Olympus Mju II w/ Fujifilm Superia 200)

同一個地方,兩個季節,不一樣的風景。

還沒來得及PO完春遊韓國的照片,我已經重遊首爾也回來了一個月多了OMG,而這一次去則是夏末時段。其實我應該慶幸自己可以在一年裡體驗一個國家的兩個季節,可是由於兩個TRIP的時間隔太近了,允許我弱弱的說句我其實有點膩了⋯⋯ 而且夏天給的感覺本來就是應該出海跳水、喂鯊魚或在海灘上看書裝文青和曬太陽的,不是?